It's been a while but this blog was never intended for regular updates...well perhaps it was but nevermind. Now I just write whenever the moment strikes. It has just done so when I've finally started revising: typical. However I feel like writing and I feel that is important, for me at least.
This is titled 'P.S I Love You', for my cousin Chantelle, who sadly passed away a year ago. It was her favourite film. She is the main inspiration to the feelings behind this post and since it was a year on saturday I feel like writing a few words about her as well.
When Chantelle passed away, in fact when she got the cancer, I really stopped caring about uni the way I used to. When I first went I was determined to get a 1st and had spent so many years focused on achieving some big career. I lost this drive when I realised, truly realised, how inconsequential work is compared to family and friends, the people who really matter. Finding a job I love is hugely important to me as I have mentioned before but, do I really want to reach the end of a career and think, well I've just wasted years of my life, and for what? It makes me so sad that we all have to work so much in our lives to the point where we're too busy to see old friends or even family, or end up having to live far away. It is a very cruel aspect of life really, if the point of it is to be happy and the very people who make us so don't have the room they should in our busy schedules.
Yes I am terrified about how my life will turn out job wise, but it's so silly. Life is so very short, and all I should really care about is making sure I get to spend as much time as possible with the ones I love, thankfully I have a few of them. I am also lucky enough to have met the love of my life and in that respect at least, I am sure of my future.
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return"
"Don't worry. Know that worrying is about as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum"
A couple of inspirational quotes there...I love quotes...I find they can turn my whole day around or make me want to burst with emotion. The wonder of words eh.
The second quote is from the video 'Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)'
I recommend it if you haven't seen it. It really inspires me, and I try to watch it as often as I can. I showed it to my Mum once and she said it wasn't her thing because she prefers religion. That's fine, but to me, nothing is more comforting than knowing people feel exactly like I do, and humanity is such an amazing thing to consider. I could ramble on forever here but instead I will save humanity for another blog post as I want to talk about Chantelle.
Just a few words really. She was amazing. She was quite simply FUN! Always up for a laugh, always smiling and dancing, and always said exactly what she thought. No bullshit. She was exactly what a person should be and knew exactly what life was about. I will always love her, and though I don't believe in life after death, I like to think that in some way she is still dancing...somehow...somewhere.
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